Today I went to work without make-up on

Today I went to work without make-up on, even though I’m going through a bizarre amount of breakouts so my skin isn’t looking its best. Me going to work without makeup isn’t an unusual thing. But this is the first time in a while that I’ve just not worn it because I felt like it. One reason is because I want to give my skin a break. For once it’s not because I’m so physically exhausted I can’t face getting up and doing it and I haven’t been feeling a twinge of guilt that I should be wearing at least a little. I have gotten into the habit of waiting a full face – foundation etc most days, and when I last stopped wearing it, I was really really down and pretty much didn’t care anymore. I couldn’t bring myself to try and make myself look presentable, not to mention I was crying a fair bit so any make up would have smudged.

To a point, I now kind of see me wearing make-up as a symbol that I’m doing better – that I want to make the effort in the morning. But that’s not a healthy way to look at it either really. I think I do to an extent wear it as a mask. Well, mainly foundation but once I’ve started on foundation I get into a roll and do my whole face.

My aim for 2017 is to take care of my skin and improve the quality of it. But I also need to work out how to embrace it, no matter what it looks like. I felt a little of that today, a little glimpse of it. Because this is my face, flaws and all. And today I really haven’t felt self-conscious about not wearing makeup, which I hope is a good sign.  I don’t want to stop wearing make-up, I really don’t. But I don’t want to keep relying on it either.

This was quite a spur of the moment post. I may unpack this in the future, write a real post at some point. But here are just some things I’ve been thinking about today.

 

Introducing my kitten, Lou Lou

Just to finish off the week I thought I’d share a couple of picture of my gorgeous kitten, Lou Lou. She’s about 5 months old now and has a medium-long fur. She has the most beautiful, fluffy tail.

I’m sure I’ll be sharing some more pictures of her along with my other pets – I also have a dog called Alfie and a black cat called Lily. Alfie and Lou Lou are constantly playing so I really want to catch that on film to share here. I love seeing animal pictures so I thought a few people out here might like to see her too.

A little bit about her: she’s not what you’d call a nice neat little kitten. She has longish fur so can look a little scruffy sometimes because of it. She loves her food so much that her front paws will usually be in the bowl and her nose always has food on it from where she shoves her face right in in the food. She has her mad moments, as you’d expect from a kitten and can often be found leaping on our Jack Russell dog, who is surprisingly gentle with her.

Let me know what you think of her and if you’d like me to share more pictures!